I chose love

It’s been almost two months since my last blog post. Fifty days full of great things: I made  my first podcast together with the Irish writer and digital marketing expert Laurence O’Bryan, met Geshe Michael Roach, author of the international best – seller “The Diamond Cutter”, translated a book for Gaudeamus International Book Fair in Bucharest, travelled to Orange County, US and made new friends, enjoyed a sunny and warm autumn. Life was beautiful and meaningful until fear crept in.

The trip to US was not planned. It came out of the blue, when Jennifer McLean announced a three day success attunement seminar for entrepreneurs. My heart told me to go and a string of synchronicities (cheap flight included) showed me it was the right thing to do. Yet, fear made me hesitate for a couple of days. I had never travelled alone to the States before, never rented a car and driven on the freeway. I had never paid attention to news stories about gun killings and drugs. To me, America was the place of  sun and rock’n’roll and freedom and beautiful landscapes. All of a sudden, it became a place of danger. As soon as I realized I was too scared to travel to US by myself, I purchased the airplane tickets. I refuse to live in fear, I told myself. I shall conquer this fear, I promised myself. And I did. Until people I knew died in the club fire in Bucharest, on the 30th of October. Knowing that death is just a passage to another state of being didn’t make me less vulnerable to the  violence and the suddenness of their disappearance. I left Bucharest  on the 2nd of November in state of shock and panic. No wonder it was fog in London, all the planes got delayed and I reached the destination hours later than it was due. Bad news kept coming – a terrible accident happened on a freeway nearby and I was afraid to drive.

This morning, a beautiful autumn day, I found out about last night’s terrorist attacks in Paris. And I decided to write this article. To state loud and clear, for everybody to hear, including myself that I chose love over fear. This is a time to stay away from the mass – media hysteria and from people who speak about terror and hate and war. Turn off your TV and your Internet connection and descend in the sacred space of your heart, where peace, love and harmony reside. Immerse yourself in it, then  bring it to the surface into the world, same way you would take fresh water out of a well. No government and military force can stop violence. We  can by choosing love over fear. Fear contracts and blinds and leads to more fear. Fear kills. It starts by killing the body cells, the soul and, eventually, other beings. Love expands. It brings life and joy. It generates more love.

As you can see, I avoid using the words “victims” and “tragedy”. Victim is as weakening as it is false. It states that humans are mere puppets into the hands of destiny, frail and bound to destruction. Spirituality states the opposite. There are no victims in this world. Only choices and life contracts. There are no tragedies only facts we convey meaning and emotions. If you were certain that humans can create their life and death – as we perceive it as an ending and a very bad thing, doesn’t exist, would you still use the word “tragedy”?

We live troubled times, that’s for sure. But than again when, in the human history, were times peaceful? Hopefully, we evolved. Hopefully, we understand that our purpose, especially in moments like this, is to keep love alive. Be a beacon of peace, light and serenity. That’s why I chose love over fear. I hope you will do the same.

PS – a special thanks to my dear American friends Myrna Godfrey, Isabel Navarro and Teri Stanley who helped me find the way back to my heart. I love you!